It's just a dance hall drug.

So i'm pretty sure that Bryan Foster is a super cutie.
We hung out all day toady.
It was really fun.
We drove around random back roads and to random three people towns.
He picked me flowers.
It was really cute.
I don't know if he likes me though.
I can't really pick anything up on him.
It's weird.
I hope he does.
We would be supa cute.
He is so freaking funny though.
I'm hungry though.


God give me strength to be able to have the desire to forgive my mother.

Our friend Lazerus sleeps.

Today was eventful.
I had a large dinner at my mom's house with all my peeps.
Megan:Was quiet tonight. I think she might have been intimidated. She was awesome at church tug o'war though.
Shelly:There is still something bothering her. She isn't as happy as she used to be. She screwed up the rice today. But i still love her.
Shelby:She was exuberant as always, but i think she found out Chuck was cheating again. I hate him.
Britni:Complained a lot. Zac broke up with her. She is devastated but more than she really should be. I wish she would have stayed for the service but Allyson and Sarah and her are impatient.
Bryan:Cutie with a booty ahhaha. Got to know him a lot more today. He's so nice. He even went to church. Even though he didn't believe. He's insanely funny.
Allyson:She was very funny as usual. I love her.
Sarah:Insane as usual. I love her hemp dread.
Kasey:He kept to himself today. He spent most of the time on his laptop making designs for his class and CD. Than he disappeared at church for Jeff who looked depressed about my cousin.
Jodran:Insanely intelligent. Undestanding. I don't know how to explain him. He's awkardly awesome too.
Than all the Ozark church goes showed up. I didn't talk to them much.
Church was nice. Except they removed all the chairs for the mix and we had to sit on the floor.
Darn you rain!

With me you'll have no reservations.

Last night was the As Cities Burn/Cool Hand Luke show.
It was really good.
Except for the fact that everyone needs to forget about how i was.
And see me as i am now.
I met a really nice guy though that apparently remembers me from when he used to go to
school with me.
I invited him to Wednesday night dinner.
Crisis bathroom situation involving me,Shelby and God.
I'm trying to balance my opinionated self and everyone around me.
I can't get into anymore fights with people.
It's emotionally and spiritually draining.
I'm just going to try and coincide with everyone.
And stick my with my true friends.
I caused myself to have a headache last night and i think it grew into the stomach flu because i stayed home to die today.
Urgh.
Oh well.
I don't think i can go to small groups tonight.
Lamecore.
Hopefully they will pray for me in my absence.

Prayer to God:
Give me strength to overcome the physical world.
Show me in the end all there is is you.
Help me believe and fill me with the holy spirit.
I devote my life to you.
Amen.

Has it really been that long?

I'm very sorry for neglecting you blog.
Hopefully they don't send the livejournal goat to come kill me in my slumber.
I always did this with my diaries as kids too.
I would leave them to die all around my disaster area room.
Here is what has happened:
Tara and i aren't friends.
Brenna isn't my best friend.
Britni and Shelby are my best friends.
Myspace updated it's picture software.
Jesus Christ is even harder my lord and savior.
Lots of new friends.
An abundance of concerts.
I still love AFI?
Hahha.
Who doesn't?
I missed the OKC show because i didn't feel as if i needed to go.
Don't worry AFI i still love you.
More than life.

Last Night:
I went to go see my friend's band play because he was all do itt.
And i was all why are you so pretty?
But when Kasey got done playing i noticed that all of these eleventeen year olds started freaking out at him.
And than i had an epiphany.
That's what i do to AFI.
Ahhh.
It's true when people say "What they are just normal people."
I'm still probably going to stalk you afi.
Sorry.


My life is wonderful.
Thanks for asking.


Shout out to the angel who brought me back here.
You know who you are.
=]
Love you.