Sunday, July 29, 2007

Get ready get get get ready.

Disclaimer:
Feelings change.
In literally the amount of there days.
Don't get your hopes up.
Or expose your feelings.
Could result in crying yourself to sleep.

Sunday, July 15, 2007

And she knows how to believe in things.

I miss you.
I don't know why i miss you.
I didn't want to date you in the first place.
Now i get angry when we can't talk for very long. I miss you.
Maybe it's because you told me you didn't want to date me anymore.
Maybe it's because i'm lonely.
I don't know.
I can't trust my feelings because i don't know if i'm really thinking it or i'm tricking myself and i shouldn't even be relying on my feelings.
I don't know all i know is that i miss you and i need you to help me when times are hard.
And times are hard.
Come home.

Thursday, July 12, 2007

Throw up.

I hate you Colorado.
You broke my spirit.
I worked so hard to achieve peace and it wasn't even strong enough to withstand seven days with my family.
My family hates me
. The craziness is overwhelming.
God sent me there to show me that i wasn't as strong as i thought i was.
I appreciate that.
I wish that He could have done it nicer.
I'm so exhausted.
I don't know who to believe in my family.
The problems are numerous.
My grandma is nothing short of evil.
I don't want to talk about it anymore.
It makes me sick to my stomach.

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

The proud parent's convention held at the er.

So last night i went up to Joplin with Isaac and Shelby to see the boys play with The Number Twelve Looks Like You,Every Time I Die,and The Handshake Murders.We were backstage before the show started and they were cooking huge slabs of meet that the flies were attacking.It was gross. The show was pretty good. Caley and Cody were there. So that was awkward but i paid no attention. The Number Twelve was really good. The Handshake Murders were a little too metal for my liking and Every Time I Die was just bad and they were divas before the show. I had some really good talks with Rick after the show about religion. And I found out my cousin lies about Kasey a lot so now i don't know what to believe. Should i believe her? Should i believe him? Why do people have to lie to impress people? That's one of my huge faults but at least i'm trying to work on it. Also afterwards we hung out with the bands. And Jayson from The Handshake Murders was a very very nice man. We are supposed to get married next year. Hahaha. He's so nice. Apparently he doesn't really talk about religion very much anymore but i got him to talk about it last night and everyone crowded around and just listened to him. He's a huge guy. He picked me up by my head. Hahah. Than he had to leave so we all sat around and watched Every Time I Die shoot off fireworks at each other. Ben got hit in the leg twice he's a crazy man. Some of the guys i met from Every Time I Die were pretty nice and they weren't divas like they were before the show. Than Isaac wanted to leave so we left. Kasey and I supposed to hang out tomorrow. Hopefuly he has his car because i'm leaving for Colorado on Friday and if he doesn't i wont get to see him until a month or so. I'll die or something.

Sunday, July 01, 2007

Clever clever lines.

Oh man.
Jerry from Sky Eats Airplane is so persistant.
I don't know if i'll be able to come see you.
I'm sorry.
ACCEPT THAT PLEASE.
I love you though.